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really pretty fustrated. try studying for an exam with notes that give you the heading, two diagrams, and NO explanation. bloody useless. im this close to pulling out my hair.
tomorrow. there's the gym thing. im pretty reluctant to stay back. =X its messing up my schedule. speaking of which, im screwing up my own body system. i had a FIVE hour nap in the afternoon yesterday. and i slept 3.5 hours in the night. my day has become night, night become day.
its hard to put whatever im feeling into words. and i really cannot stand ZMCMW. know who he is? if not for someone, i'd prolly have hunted him down already. he'll be six feet under. and 700+ smses? who would believe you. give a smaller number next time. -__-;;
really fustrated + irritated + annoyed + pissed + tired + bored + going crazy. everything just isnt adding up properly. like 1 + 1 is giving me 3. like some physics theory someone tried to explain to me before.
i was reading this website about playing by ear. and they said that players read notes, while musicians read chords. they made alot of assumptions in that article, which was pretty irritating. but that one point was pretty valid. its also what my teacher has been trying to teach me. reading chords. ive been finding it quite difficult.
practice. my exam's in four months. ive been playing the same songs since MARCH. and im nowhere near perfection. considering that i hardly practice anymore. no more patience. cj has changed me. and i dont like it. not like last year, or sec three. my holidays were amazing. wake up in the morning and play for two hours. have lunch, stone abit. go back to the piano and play for another 3 to 4 hours. those were the days when it was really fufilling.
probally need to start playing stuff for fun again. its not a matter of FINDING time, but more of MAKING time. if its important enough, then the focus will be there. exam's in four months time. roughly about 20 lessons more. memorise appregios, perfect scales, speed up, no mistakes. can i do it?
its not the time for self doubt anyway. i want to start teaching piano, too. like basic piano. even before grade one. anyone got students to reccomend to me? $120 per month, 40mins per lesson, once a week. its quite reasonable, i would say. just find me three students.
i should stop gambling. still in negative, thanks to my noobsterish mahjong skills. its prolly the bad luck from seam, but still. pretty lucky in football. but its a bad habit thats hard to kick.
show the world your truest color. paint me a nicer picture.
there's too much to study, and not enough time.
wish me luck.
*side note. really dont like it when my friends are upset. makes me feel sad too. ): cheer up please. >.<
